Never Let Me Down

How bout turning another page so quick.

I was so excited to come back home for summer to where I actually got sick of being down in So Cal...weird I know. But I was pumped to see all my friends, to go to the lake, play volleyball, go to the Classy city of Reno haha, and do all these exciting things, then I actually get here. I am struck by the fact I still have no car to drive anywhere, I am at my parents house in the town of Minden which could win America's Most Boring Place of the decade and win a banner and everything, all my friends have moved away, I am stuck with no job to make that stuff that rules everything around me, money, and I am bored beyond measures...

I believe I have watched every movie on Netflicks through live stream on my computer cartoon shows and everything, downloaded every new song that I hear whether its good or terrible, worked out to where my toes even get sore, blast electro music in my room until my parents tell me to turn it down because they are watching Dr. Phil, cleaned every room in the house garage and even outside, and the days turn into nights so slow... Coming to the conclusion that It is possible I may die very soon due to the terrible sickness we all call boredom. Then I see my younger sister who has a job, gets to drive the car, and stays out later then I do at nights with her BF and It makes me want to steal a car, any car, and make my own grand theft auto game, just to make my life a little more interesting.

On the positive side... I was able to see every Stanley Cup Finals hockey game, cause being Canadian I love our national sport, and the team I was cheering for, after my real team got beat out, won. And I get to see Boston make a series out the NBA Finals by now giving LA a run for their money, which Im cheering for the Celtics, cause I "dislike" the Lakers, except for Shannon Brown....because not everyone can truly fly like him. Then NOW I finally get to go back down to Californ I A with my pops. Little father-son bonding time/ find a job to survive time.

My dad is going down to meet with some people and do some interviews which hopefully will lead into a job for him, as for me..
A new proposition has been brought to my table...and I think I may take it.
I Love to meet people incase you forgot, and I Love to help people, and this Job brings both.
My father got an e-mail from a camp in La Jolla, CA at UCSD. Its a camp for people who strive to become better fit, loose weight, and build self confidence and esteem. Sounds perfect for me if I can contribute to help changing their lives. All this happening in a week. If I take the job, I go down with my father wednesday 6/14 and dont come back until August or if my parents eventually are able to move down I wont be coming back. I would move into an apartment at UCSD, I already missed two weeks of training but start Sunday at the opening ceremonies. I mean this camp is at UCSD which is right next to the ocean, we do exciting things like surfing, basketball, swimming, pretty much any activity you can think of we get to do it, so sounds cooooool I guess... Then also get to go to freakin sweet places like Sea World and Disneyland and on and on! I will be finally making a little bit of cash and the camp pays for food and everything so I cant complain... A true blessing once again that I am thankful for.

Taking this job means I wont be here in the Tahoe area for the rest of summer, and I wont get to see everyone who I wanted to spend time with, No July 4th at Zephyr Cove, no more Tahoe for awhile, and dont get to say goodbye to really anyone. But that doesnt mean I wont keep in contact as much as I can! So how about another turn of the page in my life so quickly...

Now im stuck here and the only thing I can think about besides leaving again is this poem... I love poetry. I love to write it, perform it, share it. I especially love Slam poetry and love to watch Def Jam poetry on HBO. I want to share this poem with everyone because it is probably the best poem I have heard. I dont even know if I could call it a poem, because this guy Preaches it! J. Ivy has become one of my favorite poets along with Shihan whose both of their performances touch my heart, my soul, and my thoughts. Its not everyday you hear or see something that changes you as a person, and this poem just spoke so much to me. I dont know how to put my thoughts into words about how I feel about this performance and poem.
Just watch and listen I hope you enjoy it and get as much out of it as I do and the words are posted below as well.



We are all here for a reason on a particular path
You don't need a curriculum to know that you are part of the math
Cats think I'm delirious, but I'm so damn serious
That's why I expose my soul to the world, the globe
I'm trying to make it better for these little boys and girls
I'm not just another individual, my spirit is a part of this
That's why I get spiritual, but I get my hymns from Him
So it's not me, it's He that's lyrical
I'm not a miracle, I'm a heaven-sent instrument
My rhythmatic regimen navigates melodic notes for your soul and your mental
That's why I'm instrumental
Vibrations is what I'm into
Yeah, I need my loot by rent day
But that is not what gives me the heart of Kunte Kinte
I'm tryina give us "us free" like Cinque
I can't stop, that's why I'm hot
Determination, dedication, motivation
I'm talking to you, my many inspirations
When I say I can't, let you or self down
If I were of the highest cliff, on the highest riff
And you slipped off the side and clinched on to your life in my grip
I would never, ever let you down
And when these words are found
Let it been known that God's penmanship has been signed with a language called love
That's why my breath is felt by the deaf
And why my words are heard and confined to the ears of the blind
I, too, dream in color and in rhyme
So I guess I'm one of a kind in a full house
Cuz whenever I open my heart, my soul, or my mouth
A touch of God reigns out

So as I finish this post, Im off to do something with my life finally. Im excited to experience the experiences that this camp will bring to me and hopefully be a part of many people lives. Also to be someone who can have an impact on changing their lives, because I'm not a miracle, I'm a heaven-sent instrument and I need to live as that everyday. I know God has a plan for my life even though the crazy sudden changes that have been happening. I will just live each day as an amazing day.

Too everyone who I didnt get to see Im sorry, and to everyone I did get to see, it was a blessing. Keep checkin for more post because I am excited to share my life, stories, and experiences with everyone!

Turn the Page

It has been forever since I last posted a blog, and I am greatly sorry. Life has just been so busy. No better place to start back again with this blog.

So I sit here Wednesday May 26th at 5:00 in the morning to start writing this, for I just pulled an all nighter due to the excessive writing of pages upon pages for essays that I have for the brain-frying time in life we call Finals. I throw the wonderful blessing the internet has given me of Pandora radio on and the blessing that THAT gives me of the John Mayer station and it gets me thinking about life.... Life, what am I doing with my life? What is going on in my life? How have I been living life? What's going to happen next for me in life? I am just so full of thoughts, and emotions, So I decide to sit here and write.

It has been one of those semesters....nay.... one of those years where I have looked at the major aspects in my life and I realized I have changed. I have changed as a human being, as a believer, as a man, as a son, as a brother, and as a friend. Id like to say Ive changed for the better, well I know I have changed for the better and matured but at the same time YES Ive made mistakes, made dumb choices, failed, sinned but those can not be the defining times in my life that shape me into this person which I live as today. For I have taken those and turned them into lessons of which Ive learned and grown from and prayed for forgiveness from. Im sure in the future I will make another mistake and sin, but thats because Im not perfect and I have been man enough to admit my struggles and mistakes. I have strived to never be someone who is fake or puts on a show to anyone, and maybe at times others may think and believe that, but I am Kyle and will always be Kyle straight up. And Kyle is someone who loves his family more then anything in the world, he has a place in his heart for everyone, who works to never judge anyone, who continues to have faith, who loves people, who continually strives to be the unique person he is. And I hope I am able to be someone who touches everyone's life, or leaves an impact, or memory, or a smile on their face because I truly love every single person I have been blessed to come in contact with and make friends with in my life. Im not writing this to boast about trying to say that Im this almighty, wonderful person but I am hear to write about what has been on my heart and what thoughts my emotions have been filled with and how things have been going in life.

Its weird to re-realize the amazing gift of each living breath I breathe and each heartbeat that my heart beats. All these thoughts coming to my heart because of the fact I am not returning to Biola next year, and It makes me sad and I can even feel my sadness in my heart because of how I have grown with love and from love from this place and now I must leave. Its a difficult choice of not returning, yet I know I am making a right choice that I feel I needed to make. I know there has been lots of options I believe I was doing like joining the Navy or trying to get a job down here close to Biola to still be around or even return in the spring semester. None of these options have final thoughts and answers...

A completely new experience for me being at this wonderful place called Biola, that now has a specific special place in my heart. We really do have our own world here and I love it. I love my floor Stipes and the brothers of whom I live on it with, I love my job at Common Grounds and the people I work with, I love eating pb and j's for every meal because the caf food is never consistently fulfilling to my taste-buds, I love the atmosphere and warm weather, I love the tall palm trees outside my dorm room, I love the presence and uniqueness each person has, I loved our sick room set-up with Captain Gilly my roommate, I loved basketball games and going crazy when David Cline gets a dunk, I loved how we had no "school-sponsered" dances yet had a dance team, dance competitions, and dance parties, I loved how us students of Biola take so much part in the Jerkin' dance movement, I loved the invention of Tool Tuesdays and Fist Pump Fridays with the guys, I loved Kyle Celinski's laugh that made everyone else laugh, I loved meeting with my RD once a week to talk about just life, I love the person I have been shaped into because of the amazing people which I have been blessed to be surround by, I love the fact that I have made some of the greatest memories in my life here and the list goes on and on. I LOVE the wonderful people here and I LOVE my friends. And all this in just a year, a quick year. A year where there have been lows in my life and a year where there has been highs in my life, but overall, my life is filled with blessings and Im so thankful.

I get asked a lot why am I not coming back to Biola.

Im not coming back not because I dont like this place.

Or because Im not a fan of the Bible minor, or open hours, or some community standards.

I wish I could spend my whole life around the people I have come across at Biola because they are some of the best and most genuine people I have ever been around and met. There is just this thing called LIFE that continues to happen, from one curve ball to the next.

The main reason I am not coming back is because I am going to take care of my family because they are my main priority in life and there has been lots of change going on and it has only been major blessings and words can describe how grateful and thankful I am for them. Another main reason is because there is financial issues, I know God is the provider and he will always provide but Im here to be with my family first and willing to sacrifice anything in order to be there for them.

Another reason is I am seeking a time to reflect on my life and put things strait in it. Now im not gonna become one with nature, smoke weed, grow my hair long and a thick beard, and try to think of the wisest things to say. I just need to get things strait with me, with God, with family, and with friends. Even though Im a 20 year old college student and should live the life of a college student, going through school, experiencing new things, meet a billion people, graduate and then find a job in the real world. But I want more then that.

Now as I turn the page to the next chapter of my life who knows what will come my way. I pray God brightens the light at the end of a tunnel for I feel to be surrounded by many. From now I will will be updating my blog more often, because It is summer and stories are bound to happen, and I am officially a college drop-out who will have nothing better to do for now, and who knows what Life brings next but I hope to share all that comes my way.

And to my time and experience at Biola, and to all the people of whom I met and shared time with I thank you greatly for being a blessing to me. I wish I could see every single person before we all leave for summer, but It wont be long till I visit to see everyone again.