It amazing what God can bring to you and teach you in all aspects of your life and at all ages of your life. Anyway, Its been awhile that I have posted a blog update, mostly because of my lazy habits, school and work packed life, my passion for procrastination and and my addiction to have an over-busy schedule. So now that I am turning 23 years old, or young, or celebrating 23 years of life, I wanna take a look back on my life and how blessed I have been growing up in a world that brings me something new each day and teaches me something new each day. I hope you enjoy a little trip through my mind and life and are able to laugh, learn, think, relate, or cry.
23 years ago my 9lb 8oz little or well big ass was born in a town that my great great grandpa shared a name with...Milton.... Milton, Ontario, Canada (AKA The Great White North). My dad was going to name me Marshall Aurthor Heidt... because he thinks he is funny and taught martial arts and Marshall Aurthor was the closest sounding name to martial arts, but then he just gave me the new up-and-coming popular name of Kyle which he was oblivious to the name's growing popularity.
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As long as I got my suit and tie, Imma grow up and still look fly?! Maybe?
So thats me, nice little tuxedo, no teeth and fresh out of a beauty contest which I won. NBD... and was awarded most photogenic. NBD... But through my younger years I was told I was a happy baby and little kid, always making people smile, laugh, and brought happiness to others around me. SUPER cliche, for I feel like all babies and little kids have a sense of presence that bring joy to others, but to my parents I was a special gift. I still hope that I am able and have been able to make people smile, laugh, and bring happiness to others around me over the 23 years I have been living.
My Father once told me a beautiful thing to life, which I will never forgot; Creating another human being with the person you love can be the greatest gift life has to offer....I think the the beauty of it is watching someone who has a piece of their mother's heart and a piece of their father's heart, combined to make one heart, walk around and grow up showing similarities through out their life that each parent has. The math is simple 1+1=1. From two hearts comes one heart, and not only do they share a heart they share everything. Another thing that I have heard is you can't really value the true meaning of love until you create one of your own with the person you love. Seeing a piece of you outside of your body, grow up and look just like you, or their mother.
Growing up I have "loved" many things...sports, snowboarding, traveling, the beach, music, Lake Tahoe, Taco Bell, a great medium-rare steak, the mountains, writing, movies, and banana nut oatmeal pancakes. But compare that love to the love I have for my family and my friends...The love I have for my family and friends triumphs tremendously. Ive only told three women in my life that I love you, my mother and two sisters....And of course my grandmas :) But compare the things you say you love, or the way you use the word love, to the way you actually love your family and the closest people to you. Is it the same? Love is a powerful word! It can be the creator or the destroyer, the beginning or the end, the best thing or the worst thing. It's upsetting that we use it so freely and nonchalantly, when we forget the true meaning of love. Its a precious thing to be shared, thats why I keep it so dear to me. A favorite poet of mine named Rudy Francisco said, "I heard that love is blind, so I write all my poems in brail and my poems are never really finished because true love is endless." I suggest you watch him perform that poem here.. If I were a Love Poet Over the years I have always thought about love and what all the hype is about, I still learn everyday about it. Its just something to think about! Enough about this love talk....
Now if I were going to tell you allllll about my life it would take forever so I am doing to give you a quick edited edition of how-to-make-a-23-year-long-story-short for you to stay focused and for me to get to where I am at now.
Anyway 16-months after I was born, my little sister Danyelle Joylin Heidt stepped into this world and my parents received another blessing from God. We packed up and left Canada in 1992 and moved to beautiful Lake Tahoe. Almost 10 years later, my littlest sister Samantha Jasime Heidt came into the world. Now the math is still simple 1+1=3. We grew up in beautiful Lake Tahoe and I believe growing up in one of the most beautiful places in the world along with the way my parents raised me, I have become the man I am today.
To me, turning another year old no longer is exciting, but growing closer to the things you want to achieve, fulfill, experience, and create in life, becomes the new excitement.
Before 18, everyone is excited to be classified as an adult, move off on their own, have the options to order off of infomercials but not actually do it, and buy all the tobacco they want. But really it was like if you screw up bad, now you can actually get in serious trouble, being an adult and all. Your really just stuck at an age that made life even harder, yet you continue to grow.
Then you look forward to turning THE BIG 21...YAY!! OMG!! THIS IS AWESOME! I can't wait to go anywhere I want! I can go to the bars, spend all my money, drink all I want, wake up with a terrible hangover, have a feeling of guilt and emptiness after spending $100+ at the bar which you come to find out that was a tab at only one bar and you traveled through six, you're lucky to find your wallet and phone on your nightstand, maybe you freak out because you cant find your ID.... yet when you step out of the post-drinking haze mid-shower a small memory replays in your head and you realize your ID was in your wallet where you left it... idiot.... and now 40% of your income is spent on alcohol and club covers and you complain about never having any money. Oh my being 21 was awesome, Right?
Then you turn 22. Still have a little hype that it has been a year of legal drinking, and now all of a sudden you're "old." You continue life maybe acting like your still 21 or maybe someone called you an old geezer and you took it serious and had a quarter-life crisis and personal intervention. You are having friends getting engaged and married left and right and kids are popping out left and right, a real job in the future becomes a main priority. It kinda freaks you out a little and maybe you feel a urgency that you need to figure your shit out. Grow up a little because life is coming at you faster then you can blink.
Now I'm turning 23!! 23 years of growth, wisdom, and maturity right? Im the old guy now right? I can only play one basketball game before I get sore and actually have to ice and relax in order to heal. I cant even make it a full day snowboarding on the mountain without getting tired after realizing all I did was skate to the chairlift. A cup of coffee is no longer just a cup of coffee, it is a highly important beverage that must be consumed multiple times through the day in order to survive a FULL day. Waking up at 7 a.m. is cool, only to grow older and wake up earlier. Hair on top of your head no longer plays a factor, your gonna loose it eventually, so why not just shave it all off! I feel like all I do is school, homework, and work-work (the one that pays the bills). I can't remember the last time I stayed up past 11 p.m. during the week just because I "wasn't tired." Sleep is crucial, coffee is essential, and you can no longer live up to your drinking potential....or shouldn't.
And now the gut punching, palms sweating, makes you cry (on the inside) thoughts of "oh my, I graduate real soon, what is the next step in my life" and eventually "oh shit, I did just graduate, what now?"... come racing through your head.
That is the question gets me excited, worried, uncomfortable, stressed, happy, nervous, and thankful for turning 23 years young! I joke that I am now an "old man" but really I'm obviously not. The things I crave more then ever now are things that will give me a teaching about life. I have been raised to be a man, not a 23 year old boy. So the things I get most out of life now are the little things and the lessons that shape me more into a man. I have many dreams in life, but my biggest one is to grow to be even half the man that my father is. That man is the most influential man in my life and greatest father, husband, teacher, and friend anybody could as for. And my mother is my greatest inspiration.
Due to my mother's MS she doesn't remember much, but she remembers the day she met my father in church and told her mother that instant that she was going to marry that man. Now hundreds of years later (or 27) after they helped Noah get the animals off the ark as my dad says, they have built a covenant together that can not be broken.
Relationships are no longer just being a boy friend or a girl friend or even a friend for someone. It is more then that during, the middle, and in the end. No matter where life takes both of you, you should learn, grow, and better your life because of someone who came into your life. Wether they took a campsite for a few nights or built a mansion in your heart. They were put into your life for a reason! Don't use previous relationship as an excuse, use it as an example, lesson, test and move on. Raise your bar higher each time a relationship ends and don't settle for anything less. I know it is a lot easier said then done but it's the meaning and lesson we must apply to our life in which why we experience, what we experience. I am not trying to be a wise man, or lecture, its just how I have lived my life and how I have learned to live my life.
Now that I am turning 23, I am content with life and I love my life. Life has always been beautiful for me no matter what ups and downs that I've gone through. I love my own life and myself the same way I love my family and my friends and that is what gives me an inner bliss. There should be no selfishness or jealousy. I have to say I have learned so much the last few months of being 22. Sure I've gone out with my friends to the bars and maybe spent to much money or sucked back too many cold ones. Yea I've made some mistakes, said something rude or unintelligent, lost patience, have been stressed, but instead of having that bring me down, I have learned to move on and what has happened, has happened(Period) Use it to your advantage in growing into a better human being and a better man. Being a man takes a lot, every man still continues to grow. Maybe not bigger or taller or stronger, but in faith, knowledge, and wisdom. That is what I have gotten most out of the thought and finally turning 23.
With one more semester of college left, and major decisions to be made, I have to continue to believe that God has a plan for me and will direct me down the correct path. For now I stay relaxed, keep my laid back personality, take a deep breath once in awhile and keep my FAITH strong. Like my father tells me and I pass on, Life honestly does suck sometimes, but its never that bad. It is what you make of it, and everyone should make it as best as can be!!! SO REMEMBER....
To me, turning another year old no longer is exciting, but growing closer to the things you want to achieve, fulfill, experience, and create in life, becomes the new excitement.
Before 18, everyone is excited to be classified as an adult, move off on their own, have the options to order off of infomercials but not actually do it, and buy all the tobacco they want. But really it was like if you screw up bad, now you can actually get in serious trouble, being an adult and all. Your really just stuck at an age that made life even harder, yet you continue to grow.
Then you look forward to turning THE BIG 21...YAY!! OMG!! THIS IS AWESOME! I can't wait to go anywhere I want! I can go to the bars, spend all my money, drink all I want, wake up with a terrible hangover, have a feeling of guilt and emptiness after spending $100+ at the bar which you come to find out that was a tab at only one bar and you traveled through six, you're lucky to find your wallet and phone on your nightstand, maybe you freak out because you cant find your ID.... yet when you step out of the post-drinking haze mid-shower a small memory replays in your head and you realize your ID was in your wallet where you left it... idiot.... and now 40% of your income is spent on alcohol and club covers and you complain about never having any money. Oh my being 21 was awesome, Right?
Then you turn 22. Still have a little hype that it has been a year of legal drinking, and now all of a sudden you're "old." You continue life maybe acting like your still 21 or maybe someone called you an old geezer and you took it serious and had a quarter-life crisis and personal intervention. You are having friends getting engaged and married left and right and kids are popping out left and right, a real job in the future becomes a main priority. It kinda freaks you out a little and maybe you feel a urgency that you need to figure your shit out. Grow up a little because life is coming at you faster then you can blink.
Now I'm turning 23!! 23 years of growth, wisdom, and maturity right? Im the old guy now right? I can only play one basketball game before I get sore and actually have to ice and relax in order to heal. I cant even make it a full day snowboarding on the mountain without getting tired after realizing all I did was skate to the chairlift. A cup of coffee is no longer just a cup of coffee, it is a highly important beverage that must be consumed multiple times through the day in order to survive a FULL day. Waking up at 7 a.m. is cool, only to grow older and wake up earlier. Hair on top of your head no longer plays a factor, your gonna loose it eventually, so why not just shave it all off! I feel like all I do is school, homework, and work-work (the one that pays the bills). I can't remember the last time I stayed up past 11 p.m. during the week just because I "wasn't tired." Sleep is crucial, coffee is essential, and you can no longer live up to your drinking potential....or shouldn't.
And now the gut punching, palms sweating, makes you cry (on the inside) thoughts of "oh my, I graduate real soon, what is the next step in my life" and eventually "oh shit, I did just graduate, what now?"... come racing through your head.
That is the question gets me excited, worried, uncomfortable, stressed, happy, nervous, and thankful for turning 23 years young! I joke that I am now an "old man" but really I'm obviously not. The things I crave more then ever now are things that will give me a teaching about life. I have been raised to be a man, not a 23 year old boy. So the things I get most out of life now are the little things and the lessons that shape me more into a man. I have many dreams in life, but my biggest one is to grow to be even half the man that my father is. That man is the most influential man in my life and greatest father, husband, teacher, and friend anybody could as for. And my mother is my greatest inspiration.
Due to my mother's MS she doesn't remember much, but she remembers the day she met my father in church and told her mother that instant that she was going to marry that man. Now hundreds of years later (or 27) after they helped Noah get the animals off the ark as my dad says, they have built a covenant together that can not be broken.
Relationships are no longer just being a boy friend or a girl friend or even a friend for someone. It is more then that during, the middle, and in the end. No matter where life takes both of you, you should learn, grow, and better your life because of someone who came into your life. Wether they took a campsite for a few nights or built a mansion in your heart. They were put into your life for a reason! Don't use previous relationship as an excuse, use it as an example, lesson, test and move on. Raise your bar higher each time a relationship ends and don't settle for anything less. I know it is a lot easier said then done but it's the meaning and lesson we must apply to our life in which why we experience, what we experience. I am not trying to be a wise man, or lecture, its just how I have lived my life and how I have learned to live my life.
Now that I am turning 23, I am content with life and I love my life. Life has always been beautiful for me no matter what ups and downs that I've gone through. I love my own life and myself the same way I love my family and my friends and that is what gives me an inner bliss. There should be no selfishness or jealousy. I have to say I have learned so much the last few months of being 22. Sure I've gone out with my friends to the bars and maybe spent to much money or sucked back too many cold ones. Yea I've made some mistakes, said something rude or unintelligent, lost patience, have been stressed, but instead of having that bring me down, I have learned to move on and what has happened, has happened(Period) Use it to your advantage in growing into a better human being and a better man. Being a man takes a lot, every man still continues to grow. Maybe not bigger or taller or stronger, but in faith, knowledge, and wisdom. That is what I have gotten most out of the thought and finally turning 23.
With one more semester of college left, and major decisions to be made, I have to continue to believe that God has a plan for me and will direct me down the correct path. For now I stay relaxed, keep my laid back personality, take a deep breath once in awhile and keep my FAITH strong. Like my father tells me and I pass on, Life honestly does suck sometimes, but its never that bad. It is what you make of it, and everyone should make it as best as can be!!! SO REMEMBER....
If you fall or get knocked down.....
You can't stay down...
.....Get back up, smile and of course look good doing it!
I guess I still have 19 days of being 22...but If someone asks me how old I am, Ill just answer with "old enough" and I cant wait to be 24 so I can rent a car at a cheaper price. OH THE EXCITEMENT!
To finish it off, I have to say turning 23 is a blessing. I am so thankful for everything that I have in my life, Im thankful for all the wonderful people I have had the privilege to meet and come into my life. I have the most amazing family anyone could ask for, and the greatest friends I would not trade anything for.
I guess I still have 19 days of being 22...but If someone asks me how old I am, Ill just answer with "old enough" and I cant wait to be 24 so I can rent a car at a cheaper price. OH THE EXCITEMENT!
